let's talk about LOVE.

LOVE [according to WIKIPEDIA, free encyclopedia] hehe, is...

...any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection.[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my girlfriend"). This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states. [*word]

As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love[2] to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love.[3] Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.


soOo...
there is IMPERSONAL LOVE & INTERPERSONAL LOVE, with chemical basis & psychological basis....

what does all that mean??? Love is confusing.

do i have a clue of what it is? nah.
i've experienced something of love in my day...
so i think. but really, i probably haven't experienced much of it at all...
but with each experience i DO go thru in life---brings me a bit closer to an idea of an understanding of this CRAZY THING known as, LOVE. so going along w/ wikipedia-the free encyclopedia (i just like sayin that), ive done the familial and platonic love, thankfully--i do have family. where i've learned an unconditional (almost irrational) love. they can do things that i do not necessarily agree with---some things DONT AGREE WITH AT ALL...YET still---i love. still...i maintain my love for them. the beauty of blood.

& about blood love...thankfully i know a true beautiful love: the love i was gifted with, when my brothers brought my nieces & nephew into this world---truly a great unconditional binding love...i knew with their existence...that LOVE WOULD HAVE ME DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING for another human being.

my mini mez:

soo...talk of "blood" love...what about the "water?" [huh?]
"they" say "blood is thicker than water"

i suppose that is true for a lot of people. but i admit that the water in my life runs just as thick as the blood...ive cultivated many giving & powerful relationships that give shine to my light...i have friends who i'd side with over a cousin anyday. that's just how it is. of my bestfriends; tajsha(<- who i really consider my sister), tina, thomas...(just to name a few) in them...i know true pure love. they are not born of the same blood, but i love them NO LESS, as if they were. when they weep...i weep. when they smile, i smile....

but i think it truly takes LOVE bumping into your life, breaking your concentration, tripping your strides & hitting you over the head to truly get to a place where u can START to understand, kinda...what it is.

I'm grateful...to have so much love for the world......
and a lot of the world to throw that love right back.........

my friends. my family.

...now with that being said...
i thought i had a pretty good idea of love, and all its crazy forms. guess it goes to show that life is truly a continual learning experience...because, i was wrong. i have had 3 great loves in my life. the 1st love, at the young age of 18--revealed what was in store for me...what was awaiting my arrival. I was young, eager. ready to love the world. and 1st love fed fire into my life. but so it goes...that flame was destined to go out. full of fire....it left my being extinguished, with almost the feeling of...failure. inexperienced & foolish i closed myself off to its other offerings. or at least i tried to.

...love wasn't quite ready for me to finish, however.
along came another great love. (who i so unfairly could not give back to. i tried. for a very long time. regretfully i just never had it in me). i was dead & exhausted from the 1st. i strung along for the 2nd, into the 3rd....both beautiful loves...both sadly, short-lived.

i once read this great line by the dalai lama;
"don't cry because it's over...smiled because it happened"

2nd & 3rd certainly etched their permanent grins into my soul. i realize that each of them brought life back into my love...planted a seed in my being, for my flower that is my soul...to know. the 2nd was my air, taught me to receive, breath steady on 2 feet. into the 3rd, my water to nurture and grow...from the 3rd as i bloomed, i found a restored passion for the world that once felt gloom, (a passionate love i am forever indebited to).

and now. from a bud of love, LIFE has started to empower, ready to be planted into EARTH.......4th found flower.

a final element in a world of ether. completing rebirth...

in love.



peace be, i am that IN LOVE, g.