love me not.

it's been a minute since i've put the pen to the paper...and that's just not right.

i feel reluntant these days, on all kindsa tips...i'm goin through some personal introspective issues...that have gone on quite a long time & now are catching up. i'm static in a world that moves...but not shifting in g waves...and my friends have come to notice my absence from...everywhere. i've withdrawn my presence & it's gone noticed. these days i feel stuck inside. i know what i should do...want to do...but i don't do.

yoga, meditate, capoeira, write, make music...all things about me that i love to do...but as of late, can't do. i'm stuck with an anchor on my spirit somewhere in limbo...and i don't know what its going to take to relieve me. its like i'm looking up and see what i need to reach for...but don't extend my arm. i want to...but i don't.

perhaps i don't love myself like i should...

that's obvious. what's worse...i'm aware. i know. i know exactly what's wrong inside & how to fix it...yet...i don't. the muse of me has gone astray...he loves me? he loves me not...