MISS. UNDERSTOOD

now...it's come to my attention that peeps are believing that JUST BECAUSE I'M NICE & SHOW RESPECT W/ HAND SHAKES, HUGS & CHEEK PECKS...i MUST like em???

assinine yo.

i don't know why we live in an age where people who are nice...can't just be nice, to be cool.

i know. i know. what a ccRaZZy concept that someone would JUST BE COOL without an alterior motive?? sheeesh. but really though? it aint like that with me...

i'm a cool cat who digs meetin good peoples. and believe me when i say that I AM NOT TRYNA BE ANYONEs GIRL.

perhaps the problem lies in the fact that...I'M A FEMALE...and there have been females out there setting bad precedent. they are called groupie bitches...hood rat...hoes.

yo.
that ain't me.

i grew up straight tomboy...the only down sista among nothing but fella's...the girl you didn't wanna fuck up & cross, cuz she can hold her own...but if she couldn't, no doubt, have mad BROTHAs on her team who wouldn't allow a thang to happen to they girl.

some shit never changes.

so...in summ. if...by any chance, you thought that my interation with you MIGHT BE A CASE of LOVE INTENTIONS & ME DIGGIN YOU...do yourself a favor & avoid embarrassment by NOT making assumptions.
i'm a pretty simple ass girl...shits pretty simple to me...if i DIG YOU...YOU WILL KNOW...OUTSIDE OF MERE HELLOs & HIs...that i give everybody.
ya heard?peace be...i am that misunderstood, g.

never said "good bye"

as long as i could remember i had a mole (or a black freckle/beauty mark/whateva you wanna call em) on my left index finger. i was always quite fond of it. i would often gaze upon it and wonder how the heck did it decide to pop up there? i found it quite attractive.

i have one specific memory associated with that mole...i was living in Fairbanks, AK (i'm a army brat if ya didn't know) on the bus, either coming home from/or going to(?) school...Tanana Jr High....this guy, who i used to like...Kenneth Something...he was half black half asian somethin or other...anyway...he was on the bus with me & pointed out that mole on my finger. Touched my index finger & said he liked that mole...and told me that he had tons of moles like that too...and he did.

it was the first and only time anyone had ever pointed it out, and seen it like i always did.

i've got moles all over the place, but that one was one of my favorites...it freckled just below my nail, off to the side before my first joint on my finger. *sigh* i just noticed the other day when i was sick as a dog---which for the record, there's nothing worse than the involuntary gag reflex urge to throw up when there's nothing in your body to throw up, word to the wise...never eat sushi & mix saki bombs with beer, voKka & bombay sapphire---

anyway. i just noticed saturday that my mole was missing from my index.

i did notice that it had gotten a bit lighter in my later years...but it was still always visible...somewhere in the near past, it decided to retire from existence. now its only a faint memory.

*sigh*

i grew quite fond of that mole. i never got to say goodbye.

peace be, i am that mole-missing, g.

lolly-gaggin...

yea...i been doin it. THE LOLLY GAG on the bloggerific tip.
sooo...what has G been up to?? well, my last post was like back in APRIL...wtf??! where do i begin??

OH! well, lets talk about memorial weekend :-)

i had another party...and then we went to the river. okay! thanks all for stopping by!



so SANTOS, HYDER & JCUT played...yea, thats wassup. haha. needless to say i was quite proud of the line. i later found out the 3 once shared studio recording space back in the day, so this party was like a reunion of sorts to the goodie. haha. great vibe & great chemistry...offered the crowd a lil bit of every dope thang. and YO..SHOWED A GIRL MASSIVE LOVE with the representation. I'M SAYING.

yes, i gya is sOoooOooOOOo humbled by the love...for EVERYONE who was there. You can't imagine how much it means, knowing that the people who showed up to my party WERE THERE B/C THEY GOT LOVE. wow. reflecting on that brings so much joy into my soul, *3ye bow* ---to everyone who DIDNT go...i went to blunt the following Thursday---ONESELF---who btw fyi, WAS FUCKEN DOPE----i had mad people give me love, apologize for not showing up. yo...the fact that they even remembered 6 days after-the-fact & made it a point to say something about it (cuz yo, i sho didn't remember) means the world.

but really. parties aint nothin WITHOUT THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE AROUND ME. thanks be to all my peoples...massive respect for all of you BEING SIMPLY YOU. i'm the truly gifted for having so many great lives surround mine.

can i get a minute to go back to my DJs tho? ? !man. warms my heart to know that such dope fucken DJs would DO ME THE HONOR of playing for my shit! that's the fucken shit...nothing better than GIFT OF MUSIC. nothing. oh!..i HAVE TO MENTION...at blunt gya's talkin to TRICKY, who asked about the part (said he was sorry for missing it)...AND SAYS :0) "call ME next time, anytime if you want another DJ" WTF??!

OH HELL YA.

i'm already thinkin about the next party, who's gonna DJ...sooOOOo hard to choose! i'm like a kid in a candy shop with all the DJ friends. man. (did i mention being truly humbled by the love???i'm jus sayin) iam. ;-)

so the party...this one was lil different, we did a fashion show with the party. it featured LE LOUIE accessories, SPACE CADET jewelry, & PHUNKNFUSION clothing company. i didn't feel like modeling, so i enlisted a "G STAND-IN" *wink...thanks reem. instead...i was the host. i was on the mizzzy, w/ hyder on decks. and damn, hyder did a great job! i was lookin back on the video of the fashion shoot we shot...(thank you baron for doing that) and THE MUSIC WAS HOT YO! hyder's my man...felt good to be standing with him again.

tajsh did all the hands on coordination of the fashion part during the party...i wanted her to be in charge of all that...it's her thang, the whole fashion show runway deal...everyone kept asking "ME" what to do----i really wanted to stay outta it all and let her run with that...so i kept redirecting everyone to SEE TAJSH! SHE'S IN CHARGE OF THAT!!

while i mingled, floated...did the g thang. she was feeling left outta the "planning" part of the whole party...& i do admit to doing most of the planning legwork & being the middle man btwn my roommates & the people DOING THE PARTY---but mind you...that's inevitable when everyone there, doing the party for favors (FREE) are doing it b/c they're your (my) friends. i know the actual fashion show filled that void for her though. i kept myself outta of that part (literally, i chose not to model)...so that she could own it. its what she does best anyway.

the party was great. among the masses of friends...furious styles, sour patch & mellow drama came thru! can you say "bboy circle?" & of course my house heads were reppin strong on the floor. there was a lil summin summin for everyone...Hyder held it down for the bboys, Santos of course laid it proper for the house heads...of course...he's just synonomous with DOPE ASS DEEP. and of course...JCUT. what i can say about JCUT?? he CAME THRU (after a gig he had at the bash on ash) AND HE ROCKED THE ROOF had everyone shaking tail feathers, or more like grinding em. haha if you don't know about JCUT...man. recognize. DOPE DANCEHALL REGGAE...NUFF SAID.

it was great night. thank you again to all my friends. your light surrounds mine, so bright.

*ahi'yi'ee*

i spent SUNDAY CLEANING HOUSE! there was sooo much trash it was ridiculous. i don't recall seeing that many bottles & cans, but apparently there was HELLA lotta it. cuz that shit was EVERYWHERE! spilling outta trash cans left & right...no space was left undecorated by masses of bottles, cans & red plastic cups. lol. brez helped me clean up...thank GOD to him! him & i cleaned up ALL THE TRASH, MOPPED THE DIRTY BLACK ASS FLOORS, AND MOVED THE FURNITURE. PRETTY MUCH...BREZ & I DID EVERYTHING for the clean up.

i had to leave my roommates something to do...so i left the dirty dishes to tajsha and left the BAGS of trash for marques to take out. but none of what they had to do compared to the legwork i put in...but oh well...i was really happy to clean up after my mass of friend fun :-) you guys were all worth it. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU AGAIN!

btw...party went all night long...to the break of dawn. literally. can you say "7am?" oh! and another thang, yea, marq's ass...he LEFT THE PARTY to go drive to VEGAS. wtf??

yea.

anyway.

so monday a crew of 7; hyder, grime, dubL, m3, reem, tajsh & i went to the RIVER. that shit was fun. we're doin another river trip THIS sunday...june 11th. holla atcha gurl if you wanna join!

peace b, i am that party river floatin...G.

haha. here's some flix to get you up to speed...you know how i do.